Giving digestion a break for health & healing
Giving my body a break from digestion is the best way I know how to feel healthier, more energised and more in control of cravings. I’m going through a rough time at the moment and can feel myself turning to so-called ‘comfort food’, so I want to give my body a break. I’m not up for doing a 100% water fast but I’m going to eat once a day, low calories (probably about 500 a day), for 10 days or so. I’ll be starting at 6pm tonight.
Watch my video about days 1 to 5 of this fast:
07:00 I drank one litre of water throughout the night and have woken feeling pretty low but slightly better than I have done in a few weeks, probably because I know I’m taking action to heal. I got stung on the knee by a hornet a couple of weeks ago and haven’t been able to walk properly, which has led to all kinds of strains and aches in my hips and legs, so that has meant walking has been an issue for me. My knee now feels like it’s dislocating itself. I feel so low because I was up to walking 5-10 miles a day a few months ago and then it all came crashing down again with this stupid setback I had. But never mind, I can get there again. I am considering delaying my 1000 mile walk by a year though. I’m nowhere near ready to start training.
09:15 Already I’m finding a smooth layer of mucus coating the roof of my mouth. This happens for me on day one, every time I fast.
09:30 Starting to feel like I have a runny nose, like I have a cold, and I have lots of mucus in my throat. Am sniffing a lot more.
10:00 Starting to feel the very first signs of a lift in mood and mental energy. I’ve got into bed to rest for a while. Starting to sneeze and my nose is now running freely.
10:10 I know it sounds strange but I feel a sense of fondness for my cells and the fact that they are starting to work hard to clear out all the crap I’ve dumped on them recently. I don’t have to do anything – I can rest while the teensiest parts of my body are getting organised and doing all of the hard work on my behalf. I am incredibly grateful to have a body that is responding this quickly to having a break from digestion – it’s wasting no time in getting started to make me a healthier person. And because I am in recovery from a nervous breakdown I am feeling grateful to almost hand over to something that will do a lot of the healing for me and allow me to meet it halfway later on when it’s helped my energy to return. Sounds crazy but if you have suffered a breakdown you’ll know what I mean.
For me this is already beginning to show signs of being a fast in a far deeper level than any I have experienced before (and I have only done two proper fasts before – one of 3.5 days on 100% water and another of 10 days on low calories). I have a sense of determination (which I know could change as the day goes on, being the first day!) and I am excited and relieved about handing over to my body, almost like I’m going to be in the background while my body and mind heals and then I can come into the foreground when my body is ready to let me. I wish I could put this into words better but maybe as the mental clarity improves over the coming days I’ll be able to convey how I feel in a more descriptive way.
10:20 I feel the want to do an enema but am not sure I have the energy just yet. But I can feel my mood improving almost by the minute and I know if I can get through today, and get through to day 4, things will change significantly.
11:30 Face is feeling suddenly dry but I have not washed it yet. Mouth tastes metallic. The sides of my tongue feel strange – tingly and mucus-y. My jaw is beginning to ache and I have a growing headache. Throat is feeling slightly sore.
11:45 First signs of hunger and my mouth is watering at the thought of eating. I want to binge eat on everything that is bad for me and I don’t give a damn.
12:00 Dozed for 10 mins and woke up chewing some spinach, cheese and egg in my imagination. My mouth is watering. Might be wrong but my face feels smoother, or maybe it’s the palms of my hands.
13:30 Had a shower, felt more energy, went to do the horses and walked round the field, then lay with Dave in the sunshine for a while. Suddenly got tired and walking up the field felt heavy on my legs, but it felt better than it has since I got stung by the hornet. Usually by now I get a weird prickly feeling all over my body but it hasn’t happened this time.
15:45 Had a herbal tea and that boosted morale. I’m not hungry at all now. Need to drink more water but on day 1 every time I have been rubbish at drinking water and then on day 2 I suddenly get thirsty and drink more so I’m not too bothered. I feel quite tired and calm and know I will get through the rest of today without a problem, though I am expecting the occasional craving. If a craving comes I will just drink water and remember that it’ll pass within 10 or 15 minutes.
16:15 I’ve noticed I am more supple already and less lethargic and lazy. But I do feel quite tired. Yesterday I could hardly stand let alone walk so I am extremely relieved to be starting my journey back to the land of the living. This year has been the toughest of my life, mentally and physically.
16:45 I’m surprised that I’m not hungry. 1.5 litres drunk so far. Water is tasting quite off, but tastes fine to Dave. I’m proud of him for sticking to this because he doesn’t find it easy and I suspect he’s doing it out of support for me more than anything.
17:00 Now I’m hungry. I want salad, eggs, cheese, butter and almond butter in my gob right now. But I also know it’s only a couple of hours til i can get into bed and drift off to sleep for 10 hours or something.
17:30 Had a few spoons of almond butter. Feel better for it and feel full. Have no need for a meal which is surprising considering up until yesterday I was stuffing my face and pretty out of control again. Still sneezing occasionally. I think I’ll lose a couple of pounds overnight tonight. I cannot wait to be more supple and have more energy but actually I am enjoying the warm, sleepy sensation I am feeling. It’s a strange thing. I have never enjoyed summer very much, certainly since I’ve been overweight. Since my breakdown I’ve done an about-turn and I am really enjoying warmth. I usually prefer cold over warmth but now I enjoy warmth as much as I do the cold which is music to Dave’s ears as I only ever seem to drag him to cold, mountainous places. I wonder if it is to do with healing. The sun is healing and warmth seems to be healing.
Day 2 (5lbs off so far)
18:00 Had a small meal and feel good. I actually feel very full up. If I had held out I could have done without it. Sneezing a lot because there is so much mucus – I never get colds or flu so blowing my nose was strange as it’s something I very rarely have to do. Noticed my knee is a lot better and my legs are moving better – I know it’s no coincidence. It’s because I have fasted for 24 hours. The inflammation goes down and the healing begins.
18:30 Suddenly tired (probably because my body is putting energy into digestion) so I have got into bed. I’ll sip on water for the rest of the evening. Feeling a lot happier and looking forward to tomorrow morning because I know I will feel a tiny bit better.
18:45 Suddenly all giggly and happy. Nose feels blocked. 10 mins later I am tired again. The roof of my mouth has a thicker coating over it and it’s extremely smooth. My nose area doesn’t seem as fat.
20:00 headache coming, sound like I have a bad cold and my eyes are watering. Feeling tired but my mood has lifted a lot probably because of the hydration. Please with the amount I have drunk on day 1 and know tomorrow morning I will feel even better. I just have to keep thinking about how I will feel on day 10 and I may continue beyond that if the first few days are with a meal or snack. I would like to do water only but hey, if I can’t do that then it’s no problem because fasting for 23 hours of the day is doing wonders for my health.
21:30 Laying on my back is easier because my chest isn’t so heavy and my breathing is better. My mood is higher and Dave and I had an attack of the giggles before we fell asleep. I think my hands feel less podgy already.
07:00 Woke up briefly feeling like I have flu. My body feels very heavy and I feel like I am sinking deeper into the bed. I feel tired.
07:30 My face and jaw ached intensely for a few minutes, then eased.
08:30 Feel energised after a shower and very shallow enema. Cleaned out the horses and fed the dogs but soon felt quite weak and had to rest a lot – this could be partly because I have been so run down and haven’t done anything for weeks, and partly because of the low calories. I’m not saying it’s all down to the fast. Personally I think it’s too early to be feeling faint because of lack of food. My knee is a lot better and my legs are moving better – I feel more supple and am surprised at how much better my stomach area feels.
10:30 Feeling very dizzy and faint so have got on the sofa to rest. 500ml of water drunk so far and I had a spoonful or two of almond butter because I feel so faint. I went to the toilet and can see already that my wee is flushing stuff out – mucus I think. I noticed a lot of mucus is coming out of my body (nose, mouth etc.) and from places people usually prefer not to mention I’ll say it – mucus came out of my vagina. Yep. Happens every time I fast 😀
12:00 We’ve pulled out the sofa bed and I’m laying cuddled up in my gorgeous plush blanket so that Dave and I can be together. He’s doing great but is really quiet today and says he just wants to get through the day without talking. I’ve promised him this will be worth it. I feel knackered and sleepy. My eyes are watering a lot. I feel quite emotional but very calm. My bowels feel full and I have no hunger at the moment – and yet again am blown away by how quickly fasting eliminates any cravings or out-of-control feelings. My thighs lower back ,right shoulder and top of my right arm ache. I wonder if that is anything to do with my liver but hopefully that is starting to heal itself … I’m positive I have a seriously fatty liver and have probably damaged it over the years. I’ve had less water today but am weeing more.
12:15 My entire body feels battered and bruised now and I occasionally get pains here, there and everywhere. For example the arch of my right foot, my neck, my wrists, toes, calves etc. It seems that my body is chucking out pain in random locations but it isn’t severe and it doesn’t last too long. I’m finding it quite an effort to move as my body feels incredibly heavy compared to normal. I am going to have a snooze and rest now, instead of writing.
13:00 Dizzy. Had a herbal tea.
14:00 My neck and shoulders are really painful, as are my legs. Hopefully it’ll pass quickly. I’ll drink some water and hopefully that will help.
14:30 HUNGRY!!!!!!!! Had better have some water. Damn me for choosing to do a fast. I want to eat.
15:30 Watermelon is a lifesaver. What a boost of hydration, brain power and happiness. Oh bloodyhell, I can feel myself entering into that ‘I love everything’ phase. I can’t be bothered with all that yet. I’m too used to feeling low. I’m going to have a snooze and give myself time to slide into happiness. Sitting up in bed I am far more supple in the legs, so that’s good.
17:00 1.5 litres of water drunk
Day 3 (9lbs off so far)
18:00 Having a laxative tea (herbal)
19:30 Jaw, neck, shoulder, feet, legs – all are aching horribly at the moment.
21:00 Had some watermelon. Dave and I are going to try to do the rest of day 3 without food (the next 21 hours). The tops of my thighs are slimmer and the swelling around my knee seems to have gone. It can’t be a coincidence – I could barely walk or go up a step 2 days ago because everything was so stiff after the hornet stung me and I started walking like a penguin.
23:00 2.5 litres of water drunk today so I’m pleased with that. My knee is aching more tonight. I’ve been thinking about my expedition more so that must mean my brain is starting to come alive again. If I’m not thinking about adventure somewhere in my mind, it means things are not good. My entire life I’ve had adventure floating around my mind – it’s always there. This year I’ve hardly thought about it seriously at all so to feel it coming back gives me hope that things are improving.
05:20 I’ve downed 500ml of water. Slept deeply and have woken to every part of my body aching, especially my right knee, neck, shoulders and toes. I wonder if I’ve twisted my knee in bed. Turning over is a lot easier and Dave and I were play fighting the second we woke up, so things are getting back to normal slowly. My skin feels smoother on my face and arms. My neck is so painful this morning – I wonder if I was tense as I slept. I have a very faint headache but no hunger at all and in fact my body is telling me strongly that it only wants water today. It wants me to be as hardcore and committed as possible to this process – it’s giving me that message very strongly. That may change later of course but I am thrilled that this is so easy for me in these early stages, as usually the first fe days are the hardest. I cannot do a juice feast/fast because I start craving food that I can chew within an hour and then binge on everything under the sun. A water fast seems to be fairly easy in comparison for me. It’s not easy, of course – it’s just that I’m at the end of my rope and clinging on for dear life with how I’ve been feeling lately. This breakdown has knocked the stuffing out of me but I know I can recover. My weight gain has also knocked the stuffing out of me but I know I can recover from that too. I just have to stick at this, take it extremely seriously and get through it. The health benefits will be more than worth it and I know it’s my time to truly heal, get rid of my weight and flourish in life as a result. I’ve held myself back for way to long. Breaking point was the best thing to have happened to me because it’s given me no choice but to face tough decisions head on and see them through. It’s exciting actually, even if excitement is an emotion my brain won’t let me feel for now. Takes up too much energy, I suppose 🙂
06:00 My bowels feel very dry and compacted. I can feel different areas being stretched and scraped as matter makes its way down. It’s day 3 and I last had a movement on day 1. It’s on its way. I’ll do an enema this morning afterwards as that really helps me to feel better.
07:00 I’ve had a bowel movement – how terribly sexy. I’m assuming I’m entering ketosis now although my mouth doesn’t taste metallic or off. In fact I feel very clean everywhere.
08:00 Loads of energy coming now. No hunger. Feeling more like myself again.
09:00 I feel clearer in the head and the thought of starting my blog doesn’t fill me with dread like it has done, because of the mental effort it takes to write. My mood is a big higher too. Aside from my knee, the aches and pains are not so bad as they were when I woke up. I’ve noticed my eyes have a yellow tinge, which always happens for me in the first few days of a low calories or water fast. Something to do with bilirubin I think.
09:45 I have actually put makeup on for once but do feel I look tired and so much older than a year ago. Far more lines on my face around my mouth and eyes. That is what stress does I guess, and struggling with a brain that isn’t working properly is very frustrating, stressful and tiring. However, I know fasting will knock years off me soon enough and I am going to stick to this with all my might because I know it’s so beneficial in so many ways. After this I’ll be intermittent fasting and doing at least one day a week of full-on fasting. It’s life changing, it truly is.
13:00 Had a herbal tea
14:00 Went for a very, very slow stroll up the field and back (probably half a mile). Feeling very weak which is only to be expected. After day 4 that will change as day 4 or 5 usually tends to bring a spurt of energy and clarity.
15:30 Had a small meal. Had planned to wait til 6pm but we both wanted to eat something.
16:30 My legs feel slimmer to the touch. Feeling very tired but I did only get 5 hours of sleep last night and have had a bit of food. I’m not feeling that rush of excitement and he buzz I usually get by this stage of fasting even though I’m not doing anything different.
Day 4 (12lbs off so far)
18:00 Sudden and brief craving for carbs/sugar – bread, treacle tart, custard. Immediately I thought of how I’d feel if I ate something like that and am really pleased we haven’t brought any food with us to this house sit aside from low carb stuff.
18:30 Watermelon saved the day again
20:00 Dave and I have been looking into what kind of fasting resets the immune system – as far as I can tell the most effective way is when you abstain from food completely and take in only water, so that is what we are going to build up to doing when we move to our next house sit in a week’s time. It’ll be a good opportunity to do so there because it’s an off-grid house down a mile of forest track and it has a feeling of being tucked away from the rest of the world, even more so than the island feel of where we are now. The fasting we’re doing at the moment will be working wonders but in order to get the most out of fasting I want to succeed at a 100% water fast, whether it’s for 3 days or longer. At the moment I seem to need a few calories to be able to stick to this but as the days go on the more confident I am that I can stick to just water in the name of helping my body as much as possible.
20:30 My left elbow has gone really dry and itchy for some reason … no idea if this is anything to do with the fast. Probably not.
21:30 Went for an agonisingly slow walk, though that is huge progress at the moment. Tiny steps lead to big results I’m hoping. It’s just frustrating because I was able to walk 5 miles easily a few weeks ago and now I feel like I’ve had my breakdown all over again and can do hardly anything. I’ll build up slowly and I’m pleased to have wanted to go for 2 walks today. I’m glad to have reached day 4 and I feel a difference in my stomach, hips, legs and in a small way my chest. I do feel ashamed of how tired and worn I look at the moment and although I can see a little improvement when I look in the mirror, I wonder if I’ll ever look glowing and sparkly again. I miss the old me. She was fun to be inside but the current me is a bit empty.
07:00 Woke up feeling achy and heavy and as if I have a flu bug without the fever. I notice it’s easier to turn over in bed and my stomach has gone down. My legs feel slimmer and fit together better when I am laying on my side. The achy feeling passed as soon as I got up. My hands and face feel smaller and more toned. My mood is really low and I had upsetting dreams. I just feel a bit flat. I think I felt like this last time I did a 10-day fast too and then on day 5 everything changed and went up a gear.
09:00 Dave and I have been discussing a 3-day complete water fast. I’m not 100% sure I’m ready for it. I think he’d be able to stick to it better than I can. I need to look into whether or not 100% water is the key to resetting the entire immune system or whether intermittent fasting does the same thing. I need to learn more about different types of fasts. I’m noticing that I am typing a lot faster as if my brain is starting to work better, which is a good sign. Dave did an enema and had a huge amount of mucus coming out of him so he is getting excited about the healing that is going on inside him – having had cancer he is taking this as seriously as I am.
09:30 I’ve noticed that I feel lighter when walking around, my legs feel leaner and I feel more upright instead of hunched over. I feel the need to rest a lot today and am actually looking forward to getting hydrated as the day goes on. I have no hunger at all, just a very faint feeling that I could eat something if I thought about it. Dave started talking about food and my cravings have gone wild. He said he had some salt water (pink salt) and it tasted delicious so we wonder whether that is because his electrolytes. The emotion is coming out – Dave has been in touch with some friends and feels gratitude for having people in his life, where normally he is pretty anti people. I have put a not in my group thanking people for supporting me. Dave describes it as a warm, fuzzy feeling.
10:30 My mood is very slowly lifting. I am feeling waves of sadness and waves of happiness but mainly I feel fairly flat. I’ve not had any water yet though.
11:00 Went for a short walk and found I was a bit stronger in the legs and chest than yesterday. Small progress but progress nonetheless. Feeling a bit faint now but haven’t had any water so I’m about to get some.
12:00 Stomach is grumbling and I have a faint headache. I could feel hungry if I allowed myself to.
12:30 Had a herbal tea
13:30 I’ve got no bra on and my boobs feel smaller – woohoo! They were crushing my chest before and now, although they are not much different, they feel very different – more like boobs instead of watermelons. My mood is lifting. I’m making a trailer for my YouTube channel and watching myself travelling and being excited about life is giving me hope that I will feel that way again very soon.
14:00 Feeling clearer and happier as the day goes on.
16:00 Had a small meal and feel good on it. Need to drink more water because it’s the water that helps to stave off hunger pangs. I’m really pleased with how it’s all going though. My brain power is definitely improving, I’m more supple, I feel happier and I know I am going to feel great compared to how I have been feeling, in a week or so.
Day 5 (12lbs off so far)
19:00 Had some watermelon and that’ll be it for today. I’ve drunk 1 litre of water so far so really need to get drinking this evening. Mucus is coming out tonight – nose and various other places. How pleasant 😀
20:30 Cannot believe how little hunger I have. I wonder how it would be if I was on 100% water. We’re still keen to try that but I’m not sure I’m ready – a small meal each day really helps me to stick to water the rest of the time … I must drink more water tomorrow though.
00:30 Have been feeling panicky tonight but only mildly. I’m twitching in the legs and hands – could be electrolytes maybe. My knee is really sore when I walk and my right shoulder is very sore and hard on top but then I haven’t been moving around a lot lately after my latest setback. My armpits don’t seem as fat (sexy!) and my stomach has gone done noticeably now, though obviously it’s nothing compared to how much it needs to go down. My feet, ankles and legs feel leaner. The skin on my chest is smooth. I am surprised to be on day 5 and doing so well. It’s not been difficult at all and I suppose it’s because I needed to do this and know it’s vital to my health and wellbeing to see it through, probably way beyond the 10 days I was planning. I feel like I could go on like this for weeks because I am taking in a small amount of food which boosts morale and helps me to stick to water the rest of the time. I cannot get to sleep tonight, though I’ve been dozing on and off. My mouth tastes metallic but I feel really clean all over my body. My hair seems to be in better condition and I’ve noticed that the clarity of my vision has improved. Dave’s noticed the same thing with his eyes.
05:30 I woke up with every single joint aching and it feels like every vertebrae in my back clicked as I turned over in bed – which felt nice actually. I plan on upping the amount of water I drink daily to 3 litres, though at my size I could probably do with a bit more than that. I’ll build up gradually. I think I’m in ketosis as I feel that flu-like feeling. The sides of my tongue taste bitter and the roof of my mouth has cleared of most of the mucus that has been coating it. The skin on the back of my hands feels smoother, as do the soles of my feet. Me wrists look less swollen. My mood is flat but then when I smile I feel automatically happier so i reckon it’s just habit from the months of feeling low that I’ve been through this year. My neck is clicking more this morning. I think my body is asking me to go deeper with this cleanse – I cannot describe how I know that, it’s just a feeling I get. I have no hunger at all – in fact I’m not thinking about solid food at all and it’s getting easier as the days go on. I’m proud of getting this far but don’t feel 10 days will be enough. I’ll see how I go.
10:00 had a herbal tea
10:30 My mood has been really high as I put together the trailer for my YouTube channel. 750ml drunk so far. The skin on my hands and arms now feels dry, as does my face, but they don’t feel it to the touch.
12:00 Had a small meal. I got a headache that only lasted 10 minutes of so after I ate.
13:15 Right elbow is itching. The left one itched a couple of days ago. Both feel dry and scaly.
14:00 Went for a walk and felt like a different person – much more energy, legs feeling stronger and knee holding up. Didn’t last long though – within 15 mins my energy had gone but I’m glad to see some progress. Came back feeling really thirsty and downed 750ml of water.
15:00 Feeling the need to do a bit more walking but am also feeling sleepy.
16:00 Had some gala melon from my mum’s garden.
17:00 Had to eat something so had eggs and spinach. I wonder if the melon has more sugar content than a watermelon and triggered hunger.
Day 6 (12lbs off so far)
18:00 The driveway here is a ¼ of a mile long track. Instead of driving the half mile total I walked with two bin bags down to the road to put them in the bin. It’s so nice to be mobile again.
21:00 Had a LOT of mucus coming out of somewhere private. It was actually quite shocking! Had a bout of the runs.
11:00 Had an incredibly forlorn feeling, as if something terrible was about to happeng. It was really strong and then it went away a few minutes later. When I did a 3.5 day 100% water fast the rollercoaster of emotions was incredible. This is as close to that feeling as I have got on this particular fast. Dave and I have decided to try even harder, drink more water and try and stay away from food completely tomorrow. We’ll see how it goes.
07:00 I woke up feeling light in mood and body. My body feels way more supple and my belly feels a lot slimmer even though I ate more yesterday. I remember when I did my last 10-day fast when I had some broccoli, cauliflower and garlic on about day 5 and stayed the same weight overnight despite feeling like I’d put on 7lbs. This is a very similar situation and it feels right that I had more calories yesterday because today I feel like it’s a second phase of the fast and I can dig deeper. Bending down to pick up the dog bowls was a lot easier than it has been all week. When I cleaned my teeth I could hardly taste the toothpaste and my mouth doesn’t feel fresh at all.
08:00 The pores on my face are smaller.
09:00 After doing the animals and having a shower my energy has sapped but my mental clarity is good. Walking through the cottage I’ve noticed my legs feel straighter again, like they are leaner round the thighs.
10:30 I think I can do just water today. I watched my last video of days 1-5 and I’m staggered at the difference in me within the space of a couple of days. I feel the need to be outside more today and to be more active. I’m over the moon. I’m feeling a bit irritable and snappy but also happy and grateful to be feeling better. 750ml of water drunk so far. I’m feeling quite emotional, like I would be if I was due on.
12:00 I feel the need to walk along the beach. I’m waiting for Dave but he feels rough so I’ve made us some lunch. Food seems to taste incredible with more flavour.
13:00 We went for a stroll down at the beach but I cannot count it as a walk. It was nice to be out and about though and I seem to want to be outside a lot today. I went and sat outside the stable and watch a crow chasing a bird of prey for a while. Felt peaceful and enjoyed the sunshine.
17:00 Went for another walk and went a bit further than I have done. It’s nice to feel myself building up but it’s painfully slow progress.
Day 7 ( 13lbs off so far)
Day 7 will be our day off, in that we can have more food if we want it. I find whenever I do long term low-calorie fasting that if I give myself a day to have a bit more food if I want it, the pressure is off. I often find it leads to a boost in weight loss too.
Day 8 (13bs off so far)
18:00 Got into bed. Suddenly really tired physically.
20:00 I feel hungry tonight but it’s all in my stomach and not in my mind. My mind is stronger than the hunger because I am thinking of the long term outcome of this fast, not the short term fix of eating when I don’t need to. I’m having water instead.
20:30 Went out to watch the sun setting over the sea and walking through the kitchen made me hungry because of the smell of the food we had earlier but I know tomorrow morning I’ll be glad I didn’t give in and have something else. We’ve run out of watermelon so I might drive to the supermarket in Penzance to get some tomorrow – it is a lifesaver when hunger strikes and it lasts for days. I’ll get some salad too. Fascinating. Coming back in from the field I found going up the big steps to the conservatory is easier. A few days ago it took quite an effort. Despite that though I feel stiffer tonight and my legs are aching a bit, especially in the calves and around the knees.
21:00 Had a snack. It wasn’t ideal though. I’ll try harder tomorrow but overall it’s going well. If I do eat ideally I want to keep it inside a 4-hour window.
08:30 Woke up feeling extremely good and full of energy. Lost another 1lb overnight after staying the same for three days.
10:00 We went to the local shop and I immediately felt hungry
11:00 Had my first small meal of the day (I’ve decided to have two meals 4 hours apart today). I feel good for it. I don’t feel like doing any walking today but am going to make sure I do something later.
12:30 Haven’t had any water today so going to down 750ml now (the size of bottle I carry around). I must focus today cos I can feel myself getting distracted by building my blog and other stuff. Water has to be the main focus before anything else.
13:00 Still haven’t had any water. I am downing it NOW! This is the quickest way for me to get cravings, lose mental capacity and stuff up. I will NOT let that happen. I’ve done better than ever this week and am not about to let that go.
14:00 Went for a walk and noticed a big difference in how I feel – much stronger, fitter and determined when it comes to getting back into training for my expedition. We have 4 nights left here before we head to the off grid house in the forest and I am going to start training on the forest tracks once we get there, as they have their own woodland.
15:00 Had my second meal of the day and feel great. I described on day 5 that where I had been at zero on a scale of 1 to 10 I felt like a 3, well I now feel like I am at a 6.
16:30 So much more brain capacity. Dave and I have been installing sub-sites for my Cookie Taylor website and my brain has kept going for hours. Plus I did the settings for a sub-domain on my own and managed to work it all out even though there is loads of different data to input. Such a relief not to feel useless. I’m not going to overdo it though – rest is just as important as getting stuff done to avoid setting myself back again.
Day 9 (14lbs off so far)
18:15 Had a sudden craving for something sweet but it was only fleeting. I’ll grab some more water.
18:45 Very pleased. I was really tired after a busy day mentally, and suddenly got fatigued but decided to go for a walk to clear away the cobwebs instead of resting. I’m glad I did. I went 4x the distance I have been doing over the past few days. All I could think about was how building up gradually will mean that as soon as I can walk 3 miles again and me knee is strong enough, I can start training for Iceland soon. I have a training plan that I put together for myself based on some long-distance walking and marathon training programs I found online early last year before I went to Iceland for my first attempt.
06:00 I’ve woken up feeling buzzing and excited about life. I feel slimmer all over my body and when I look in the mirror I see that familiar drive in my eyes. I’m 8.5 days in and fasting has completely turned me around. I felt blocked in my gut yesterday and I’m feeling even more blocked up today so am going to do an enema this morning after I go for a walk. Today I feel like I could walk a few miles.
10:00 I did a light enema and it helped to clear some stuff out. 750ml of water drunk so far.
10:30 I am super irritable but also laughing at the way I’m snapping at Dave, who is high in mood and shrugging it off by laughing at me too. I have stomach ache but it’s probably due to the enema bringing matter down.
11:30 Had some steamed cauliflower with butter, cheese, pink salt and black pepper. Food is more delicious – the flavours were incredible. Now about to down my second 750ml of the day. Still slightly irritable but love the way my body is feeling slimmer and feel happy overall. My mental capacity is great considering I did so much yesterday.
13:00 Went for a walk but had no energy. Didn’t go very far. I don’t feel like I’m fasting, restricting calories or depriving myself. What I’m taking in is satisfying and I actually love the feeling of not having too much food in my belly.
15:30 Just realised that 4 hours have passed and I’m only just beginning to have faint hunger. I might eat again but might stick to water. Not quite sure but I think I can stick it out.
17:00 Had a second meal with lots of vegetables but I overate and do not like that feeling. Immediately I felt tired, irritable and got a bit of stomach ache.
Day 10 (14lbs off so far)
18:00 I’m up and down with mood this evening. More towards a flat mood to be honest.
21:00 I’m very breakdown-y tonight. The sound of Dave using his mouse and clicking away is going through me like a drill. I need more water tomorrow and more rest. I don’t want to make the mistake of overdoing it again and ending up back where I was. I refuse to slide downhill again. I have done a lot on the computer over the past couple of days because I desperately want to launch my new career and website and blog but I am going to have to accept I cannot do as much as I used to be able to do at the moment. One day I will be able to but I have to hold back at the moment. I am proud of myself for taking this seriously because there was a time I abused my body and mind so badly and ignored all the warning signs. Never again. Going to get a good night’s sleep and get out early for a walk after an enema.
07:00 I had a fever overnight and have woken feeling quite low in mood but I think that’s going to lift soon. I’m drinking water already and am determined to have at least 3 litres today. I feel hungry this morning, probably because I ate more yesterday.
10:30 I am both chilled and irritable today. I can’t take much noise. Nothing to do with the fast and all to do with my breakdown.
11:30 I’ve got cravings to eat rubbish today which usually means my body’s getting ready to switch up a gear. All I have to do is ignore the cravings and carry on as I am. I’ll eat a small meal at 12pm and that will get rid of potential wobbles later. I’m bound to get days where I am hungrier than others – I’m not eating a lot of food. I have to say I enjoy feeling emptier than fuller even if I do feel hungry at the moment.
13:00 Haven’t eaten yet but am craving wine for some reason. Perhaps it’s because it’s just filled with sugar. We’re about to prepare some food and that’ll take the cravings away but in the meantime I’m downing water. It’ll be worth it to beat cravings and get well.
Didn’t write anymore but came off the fast that night.